Today is your birthday
And I woke up sad.
I said a prayer this morning
For our Mom and Dad.
I included the rest of the family
And even added myself,
Because I know, we too,
Will need God's help.
I think about your life
The path you were given,
Then I say to myself,
"God must have been thinkin!"
He took you from our lives,
Oh, so suddenly.
How can we say no,
When yours was not so easy.
Now I'm supposed to believe
That you are in Heaven,
But God, please forgive me
For I know of your sins.
And I was not there
To see you accept
as Savior and King.
I don't know what else to do
But pray, all will be forgiven.
Satan tried to tempt me
But I would not succumb.
God clearly must have heard me,
Now I am forgiven.
For the strongest of believers
Know that He has won.
With all my love and enduring forgiveness
I miss you,
(Written on your birthday February 18, 2001)
I will never forget our last day together
As our family gathered around to wish me a farewell
The day for me seemed surreal
As I looked around and saw each cousin all grown up
They each had their own little family while we still had none
But the smile on your face as you played with Sierra
Told me that you in your heart had one.
The day came to a close and it was time to say goodbye,
When I gave you a hug you said,
"Sis, maybe when I get my Toyota running,
I will drive across country and come see you.
How far is Philadelphia anyway?"
"3,000 miles," I said.
Then I left you standing there by that lamp post
But as I drove away, I did not want to go
Because somewhere in my heart
I was afraid that I would never again see my big bro.
I pray to God everyday that that will not be true
And try my hardest to live by God's will
For the strongest of believers tell me you are in Heaven
And I pray to be someday too.